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i’m once again tired of life, i’ve gotten bored with its bullshit. i try to be patient, but it just doesn’t work. 

here

it’s 2:08am, friday night, olivia is asleep, along with everyone.
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what am i doing here?
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i’ve been listening to The Pixies. only the greatest band on earth. yes, i capitalized their name, because they are gods amongst other musicians. thank you (phetus, unikr0n, or whatever internet alias), for introducing me to The Pixies.

i remember the first time i HEARD The Pixies. of course i had “heard” them before. but the first time i really HEARD them, was a peaceful trip.
and when i say ‘trip’ i mean, lsd trip. i figure at my age, and who i am now, it’s ok to blog about this experience.  i’ve calmed down a lot since then.

so anyway, it was phetus, k0rd, and i(des), sitting in k0rd/tkk’s apartment. i was laying on the black couch, and i’m not sure how everyone else was sitting/laying.  for some reason, i picture k0rd sitting at the foot of his big black chair(whatever it’s called; it has a footstool connected to it), and phetus laying on the loveseat.

The furniture was all black, the walls colored an off-white, while the fire illuminated it all.

We had stopped by the “Double G” earlier, as phetus and k0rd called it, to get some firewood. We kinda thought it would be nice to have a fire.

at the beginning of the night, while k0rd was still awake, i remember listening to peter gabriel. wow. that was some crazy shit. i remember some songs were so awesome, and melodic/happy...everything was so bright in the room.

until the next song came on, which made the black in the couch/loveseat/big chair/and coffee table really come out. EVERYTHING was dark, and dancing around me...a little eerie. it’s really amazing how much music can affect moods. and you can especially see it while on lsd/shrooms.

once k0rd went to bed, i remember at some point thinking i, myself, wanted to go to bed. i remember laying there on the couch, fighting the stimulation of acid, and trying to force myself to sleep. nevertheless, it didn’t work, and phetus was trying to conversate with me, which kept me awake.

I remember the fire dying out, it was nothing but ash and hot cherries. phetus kept poking at it, poking at it, and poking at it, all the mean time we at a pixies cd in the cdplayer.  i could still swear today, that it said “It is Dead, It is Dead, It is Dead!!”, but nevertheless, it says “Ed is Dead”.  But for that time being, i thought the song was placed down just for that situation. Hell, I thought the fire was gone/out/DEAD! but no, it wasn’t. phetus kept poking at it, and finally it got relit, and we had a nice fire to sit in front of for the rest of the night. we talked about money, and life. it was amazing. of course i learned that it said “Ed is Dead”, and not “It is Dead”. but that didn’t matter too much, the rest of the songs took me away, and i’ll never be the same again.

The Pixies make me happy.
The End.

well, as a beginning to this so-called blog, i want to re-introduce myself. I am Brett Hicks, some just call me Brett. i randomly decide to capitolize, punktuate, and spell correctly. it’s all in laziness, or just not caring..which kind of go hand in hand, right?

For the 2 of you that happen to have this on RSS feed, you already know the information I’m about to give you. And, for all the rest, this will be new to you. My blood no longer flows the color of brown..it flows BLUE. That means i finally got out of the box I have been working in for over 5 years. That’s right, you read correctly, I quit UPS. I know it’s hard to believe, but I did it and I’m so much happier. I took a full-time position at Fastenal.

I’m still unsure if I made the right decision, but at the same time, things just got a lot easier on me, mentally, and physically. I work 7-3 mon-fri, no weekends, just 40 hours a week. It’s been a sigh of relief. I finally feel like I have time to do things, and I actually feel like doing things.

Just last week i finished my fence I’ve been dragging out for over a year now. Ruca can run and play, and hang out. Check out this: Ruca.  That’s right, i even made my pretty little Ruca a door so she can chill on the front porch, and she LOVES it! 

i just read a bulletin on myspace with the following:

”Bible warns us of Barack Obama!
The Bible has warned us that ‘A man will come from
the East that will be charismatic in nature and have proposed solutions for all our problems and his rhetoric will attract many supporters!’

The State is NOT our Savior, Christ is!!!!!!”

i guess i just forgot that Christians rule this country and all other religions are just there to take up space. if you guys have seen Stephen King’s “The Mist”, then this except will remind you of the crazy christian lady that eventually got shot in her damned head. 

so, i havnt updated in awhile and thought maybe i would do that for anyone that might stumble back upon this useless site. 

i’ve been wanting to do woodworking things for awhile now, it’s just always seemed kind of fun, and a good hobbie to get into. so, a couple of weeks ago, i bought a palm sander, and a router(this is how you make decorative corners and more on wood) to begin with. i have a circular saw, and borrowed a table saw from my brother. my first project was a cabinet to hang in the bathroom. i didn’t do anything too “decorative” to it, ,just more or less rounded some edges. it’s almost done now, i’ll throw another coat of paint on it when i get home, and maybe it will be dry enough tonight to hang up. i may hang plastic up around it and hook up my small space heater so that it will dry faster.

my second little project i made was a magazine rack to put in the bathroom, and could hold my maxims. olivia didn’t really want them in there, though, i’m not sure why. that was a quick project though, however i didn’t paint it, so it doesn’t look all that great, but i don’t really care.

my sister told me i could make a birdhouse for her birthday, so that will be a project coming up, and i have a couple more things i’d like to build, including a dvd rack. why? i don’t know..i have room in my tv stand for them. i guess it will just be something else to do. one day, i’d like to make things like rocking chairs, a bed, and some night stands. i don’t know if i’ll ever do those, but it seems like it could be fun.

oh, and i have a friend opening, if anyone wants the spot that isn’t already a friend of mine. just email me at if you are interested. please include hobbies, and such so i know for sure we have things in common, because i cannot allow myself to be friends with someone if there are no common interests involved. it just doesn’t make sense. i’m a pretty good friend, i’m there when you need me. and if you havn’t heard from me in a while, that doesn’t mean we’re no longer friends..i’m still here until you turn your back on me. thanks, have a great day. 

i’m at a loss here at work. they have some gay web blocking software. its called websense. i need a way around it. so if you guys know of a proxy site or something, lemme know. it’s not even that i want to look at dirty pictures, or d/l illegal media, go to myspace or anything like that, i just hate being blocked from a forum that would tell me how to fix my tv, or things of that nature. the software blocks out certain categories, such as forums, entertainment, general email, etc. and theres a lot of sites out there that fall into all these blocked categories. i actually tried to look up something work related once, and was unable to find the answer to my solution because it was blocked. so anyhow, you guys that have the internet at your home, or are not blocked from every freakin’ site known to man while you are at work, please do some research for me. i’ll give you one free S/S 1/4-20x1.5 HCS.

i should probably write about something more upbeat, since it seems as though i always rant, and seem pissed off about shit. but the three of you reading this know me, then you probably know i am always pissed off about something. i’m a pessimist. i’m 25 years old. still just a wee lad, really. and as i look into my future, it’s just depressing, and i’m sure i’m not the only one that gets sad thinking about the long hours of work i’ve already put forth since i was old enough to do work. i’m even counting those yards i raked, or mowed when i was 12 to 15. although it was only twice a month or so that i did it.

but then i think back to the bilo days where i started working only 15-20 hours a week during school. once out of high school, that went up to 30-35 hours, sometimes 40 hours a week.

now i’m up to over 50 a week..with one day off. i’ve been doing this for 1.5 years now. i know one day i might have a 40 hour week..but i’m not really seeing that happen. if i stay at ups, i know i wont get 40 hours a week for along time. perhaps at fastenal i could get 40, but i don’t know. anyway you look at it, i’ll still be working for the next 30 years or whatever. i’ll be 55. some great life we have. working, paying bills, keeping up the house, making people happy. i’m tired of it. is it just me that looks at life this way? or does everyone else do it too, only not complaining as much? surely i’m not the only one thats pissed off about all the bullshit we were put here to do. maybe i’ll buy a lottery ticket and win big.

MILLION DOLLAR MADNESS, MILLION DOLLAR MADNESS, MILLION DOLLAR MADNESS, MILLION DOLLAR MADNESS! I CAN’T BELIEVE IT’S HERRRREEEE!

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what’s mine is mine, and yours is yours.

if i have a towel laying in the garage, it probably does not make it a grease rag. it’s probably sitting in there from where you left it outside and i just happened to leave it in the garage. the cleanliness of the still blue towel would generally mean it’s not intended for grease, seeing as it would have been black. good job.

if i say no to taking something of mine to another persons house, that generally means, i wanted it to stay at mine, because..it belongs to me. whether i was using it or not doesn’t matter.

why are people so fucking stupid?  bah. 

well, some of us think it’s soooo cool that they can grow macho beards and shit. well, i would totally participate in this too, if only i were able to. so instead, i made up my own.  it’s called “chairgromo”. i also have a picture of what my month is yielding for me. so piss off geoffrey!

beat this!

and if this other job thing works out, then i will participate in all the beard growing things next year, but this was the best i could do. sorry guys for letting you down!

i read an old blog from mays when he used to blog at chattablogs or whatever, and it got me wanting some mcdonald’s. the whole reason for this post is really because i wanted to leave a comment, but for whatever reason i couldn’t.

If you want to read it, go here:monkey’s to the rescue! It basically talks about how rude a Mcdonald’s employee was to him. Everyone knows how pissed off it can make you when you’re basically ignored by someone working in the food industry. Or when they are rude to us. I don’t understand it. I worked at Bi-Lo for a long time, and no matter how bad of a day i was having, I tried my damndest to treat the customers well, because..that was my job.

Geoff left a comment on there saying “It’s sad when the customer is more polite than the employee”, and it really is. Honestly, why should I kiss their ass when they are being assholes? I shouldn’t have to. BUT, if we’re assholes, then you have to worry about getting spit in your food, or worse. Why should we even have to worry about things like that? Why are there people in this world that would do such sick things? Regardless of all the worries, I believe I’m going to Micky D’s for some lunch today.

theres a few things i hate quiet a bit in life...one of these being phone calls not being returned. it’s ok if i didn’t leave a voice mail, because i figure you would probably call me back when you saw the missed call. ok..thats fine. but if i leave you a voicemail and you don’t call me back, thats kind of irratating. (going to fix a drink). and i’m back. it’s just irritating because of the fact that i don’t generally leave voicemails is it’s not important..depending on who you are. and there are very few people that i will do that for, because i consider them really good friends, and i feel like it’s a nice gesture to let them know i’m just calling to see whats up. which, when i get voicemails, i dont reply to them always. mainly because i forget.

but if you can’t reply to a simple text..i feel as though i am being ignored. because how hard is it to punch a small replay, even if its just saying “ok”? right, it’s not hard at all. but i guess i can understand the busy lifestyles of everyone since i usually have nothing to do. i never work. granted i do have a whopping 4 hours to do whatever needs to be done during that time...which is usually nothing since i’m a piece of shit, but i’m excusing everyone else from being a piece of shit, because not everyone wastes their time being drunk. so basically what i’m saying is: if i can take the time out of my day to reply to a message that seems to be something worthy of replying to, then i’ll do it. however, not everyone sees it that way, and thats fine, because i’m sure that they HAVE PLENTY TO FUCKING DO ON THEIR GODDAMNED OFF DAY!

i’m sorry this has been a rant, and unfortunately the person this is referring to more than likely won’t read this, but alas, i have my opinion out on this world wide web thing. i love you guys that are not assholes.

Most of you won’t care about this, or maybe none of you will.  I’ve always been a fan of Enlightenment(window manager for X windows(linux)), and have been checking in on the upcoming version for sometime, which is Enlightenment DR 0.17. The current stable release is 0.16.8.10 or something to that effect. I’ve seen screen shots of it, and it’s just pretty. DR17 will be a little different than previous versions..before it was a window manager, which is basically something that sits on top of a shell(n0ia, correct me if i am wrong please). Well, DR17 is going to act as a shell, and will handle things that gnome would have done underneath Enlightenment in the previous versions.

A while back I attempted to install from CVS, which I didn’t really know what I was doing, so needless to say I didn’t ever get it to work. Not only because I didn’t know what I was doing, but also the whole this needed this dependency, and that needed another dependency, or things just didn’t compile right.

I did a random check up on it yesterday, and was reading up on it as well.  I happened to read that there are a few unofficial packages for a few different platforms. One of those being Fedora(which is the flava that i run). So, I followed the link and kind of read up on it while I was at work, sent the link in an email so I wouldn’t forget about it.

I got home and followed the few directions needed to executed to download and install it. It’s so nice when you don’t get a bunch of errors about dependencies or compilation problems. And that means, i had no problems and everything was installed smoothly.  I booted up into it, and was in awe at the eye candy. Just little things were neat. The way the icons bounced on the icon bar, and the way the menu item glimmered like light was shined on it when the cursor moves over it.  Basically, I was thoroughly impressed with it, and have had no glitches yet. Even though this version isn’t quiet considered “stable” yet..it seems pretty damned stable. So, if any of you *nix nerds out there wanna check out some eye candy, I recommend going to this site:enlightenment.  Scroll down to the “Download Enlightenment DR17 and the EFL”, and click on which ever link suits your platform. 

so after reading about amy’s camping trip, i thought i would write about the camping trip i’m going on this weekend. there will be fire(s), because nothing says camping like burning whatever you can find. there will also be tents, in which we will sleep in..on the ground, because its more fun to be rugged than to be comfortable for whatever reason. we will kill our own food, because thats manly. ok, i’m not killing anything, but the “hunters” that are going think they will. if they do, great, we can have deer stew. or squirrel stew..whichever they kill. theres a stream next to us, which is where we will catch fish with our “bear” hands(raawwrrrr). sorry. oh, and we will poop and pee in the woods, and not shower at all, because this is camping..right?

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well, a friend posted this on myspace, so i was bored and figured what the hell, i’ll watch it. so now i thought i would share it with you guy(s).