Tuesday, January 22, 2008
yawn, i’m tired.
i should probably write about something more upbeat, since it seems as though i always rant, and seem pissed off about shit. but the three of you reading this know me, then you probably know i am always pissed off about something. i’m a pessimist. i’m 25 years old. still just a wee lad, really. and as i look into my future, it’s just depressing, and i’m sure i’m not the only one that gets sad thinking about the long hours of work i’ve already put forth since i was old enough to do work. i’m even counting those yards i raked, or mowed when i was 12 to 15. although it was only twice a month or so that i did it.
but then i think back to the bilo days where i started working only 15-20 hours a week during school. once out of high school, that went up to 30-35 hours, sometimes 40 hours a week.
now i’m up to over 50 a week..with one day off. i’ve been doing this for 1.5 years now. i know one day i might have a 40 hour week..but i’m not really seeing that happen. if i stay at ups, i know i wont get 40 hours a week for along time. perhaps at fastenal i could get 40, but i don’t know. anyway you look at it, i’ll still be working for the next 30 years or whatever. i’ll be 55. some great life we have. working, paying bills, keeping up the house, making people happy. i’m tired of it. is it just me that looks at life this way? or does everyone else do it too, only not complaining as much? surely i’m not the only one thats pissed off about all the bullshit we were put here to do. maybe i’ll buy a lottery ticket and win big.
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Well, I sorta know how you feel. I’m not working 50 hours a week, but I’m working full time and going to school full time. And it sucks ass. So yeah, you’re not alone in how you feel.
You work for something. Otherwise, you wouldn’t have your house and your tools and your alcohol and all the things that make you happy. If you want something else or something more, then you’ll work harder. And then one day, you will grow up and you’ll work for your family because the most important thing to you will be them. And it will be fulfilling for you. It won’t be fun—it probably never will be—but it will be fulfilling. And that makes it worth it. I’ve lived my life, squabbled so much money and had nothing to show for it but a roof over my head, a truck, motorcycle and a cool TV. But now I have something more and it makes it all worth it.